11 | 52

WEEK 11

My poor sick baby. 

Elijah had an intense flu this week.

He slept a lot and threw up a lot.

10 | 52

Week 10

It snowed 6 inches and we went out and had a fun time! :) 

He loves life. 

Plain and simple. 

Elijah reminds me that life is fun no matter what. 

9 | 52

Week 9

I am trying to take a photo of Elijah every month with his big moose. 

This is his 14 month photo. :) 

He won't sit still so each photo is hilarious!

Life is short. Get over yourself.

I recently put the title of this post as a Facebook status. And thought I would clarify what I mean exactly. 

I'm not sure if you have heard of the YouTube channel "SoulPancake" but they post really amazing videos. 

I found out about them partly from my sister and partly from Rainn Wilson (Dwight - The Office). 

Well they have a series about death. Interviewing people facing their own death. And putting a positive view of what it's like. It is beautiful. Even though it's sad, it's beautiful. Especially when the person dying loves Jesus. 

This past week one of the individuals featured in one of the videos went to be with Jesus. His name was Joel. He is a miracle. He wasn't supposed to live to see 2 years old but God healed him time and time again. He was five when God welcomed him home. 

His passing hit me hard. Mostly because of some strained relationships; relationships I wish were better. But the other people don't want anything from me. They choose other people over me. And that is just fact. 

Joel's passing really made me think about life. 

My life. 

It's very similar to how I viewed my life after my grandfather passed away. 

Death always grips my soul and touches me greatly. 

I see so much petty behavior in the world. I am always praying that I am not being petty towards others. 

I want to forgive and show grace to people. And give people chances. People who truly want to change and are truly sorry for their past wrongs, I want to give them 2nd chances and third chances and oh heck, infinite chances. As long as they are truly trying to be better. And letting God work on them. I have plenty of grace to give them. 

I think about how there aref amilies that have experienced great loss and they wish their loved one was still with them. 

I get so emotional when I think about those people. Because I am alive and there are people who I love who don't choose me. They choose friends and they choose substances and they choose themselves. 

There are people on their knees begging for their loved one to live. While we sit here alive and well. I get so desperately sad thinking about this fact. I know the only person I can control is myself. And I have fervently been praying to continue to show people God's love and His grace & mercy; despite how they have treated me. 

I'm sad that people are selfish and they aren't willing to work on forgiveness. Or for whatever reason they can't see past their own selfish feelings. 

Think about your own life. What will you be known for?? 

Will you be the person who just couldn't let things go? 

The person who holds on to the past? 

The person who won't accept an apology? 

The person who won't enjoy life to the fullest? 

The person who can't get over what someone said some time a while ago? 

I know I don't want to be that person. 

It's time to get over ourselves. 

Because life just isn't that long. And it's important we don't take it for granted. 

Let it go

If you don't like somebody and you want to find something wrong with them, there is always a pile of rocks you could throw. But guess what, there's a pile of rocks for you too. We all stumble. 

A person’s wisdom yields patience; it is to one’s glory to overlook an offense. Proverbs 19:11

"If we love someone we present them on their best day. If we hate someone we present them on their worst day"

-Pastor Mark Driscoll

She said it all...

http://www.thehealthyhomeeconomist.com/epidurals-wolf-sheeps-clothing/

This is why I become afraid when women choose epidurals. 

\\ My heart today //

Lately, every time I feel lead to post something spiritual, I hear a voice saying "don't do it" "it's not worth it" "what's the point" etc. . In those moments I pray for the thoughts to leave my mind in Jesus' name. After I was made to feel that my posts are offensive, 6 weeks ago, I have struggled internally each time I go to post. I know in my heart, for now, as a stay at home mother, this is what I can do to lift others up. I can write and I can use my words to bless others and spread the truth. I can share cute photos of ourf  smiley to brighten someone's day. But that doesn't mean I don't struggle to write this stuff. I don't want anyone thinking I am perfect. I am not perfect, Jesus is. I can try my hardest and I will never measure up. It's all about His glory through me. #love