Hind sight // God's plan

Joseph's story in the Bible is one of my favorites. Joseph must've been so scared to be sold into slavery. He must have been sad and angry many times through out his life. Because other people a used their power and hurt him.

It reminds me that hind sight is a funny thing. As we are in the midst of something painful, sad, confusing or frustrating (or all of the above) it's easy to forget about God. Or it's easy to think he's forgotten me. But that's our flesh and that's me attributing human characteristics to God. People let us down. People forget us. But God. God does not. He just doesn't. And when we look back after the hard time has passed, if we've been following God through it, we can see all the beauty he revealed. We can look back and see His hand was over us the entire time. There was a point to the suffering. And there was a purpose for the pain. It molds us and changes us and stretches us to new depths. His plan and His will for my life is good. 

This is what life is about.

It isn't about me. 

I have been sitting her snuggling with Elijah & contemplating my life. We only have one chance at this life. One chance to do right things. Moments come and go, and we can't get them back. When you don't give something a real shot, you will have regrets. Keep going. If it is something good and solid it is important to keep at it. 

 I have been living the past four years with that in mind. I decided to dedicate my life to Christ and I refuse to stop. 

And I am especially glad that I have given my all to this sweet little boy that is asleep in my arms. Through tears, sleepless nights and constant change, I keep going. I continue to pray and do what is truly best for him. Not what is best for me. 

We had a rough start. Labor was beyond intense and overwhelming. Nursing was hard at first. But I know breast is best. It simply is. No questions about it. 

I am praying that anyone struggling right now will keep doing the right thing. 

Excuse their andomness it's late and I am just jotting things down to expand on when I can get to my computer. I currentt have a 25 pound teething one year old on my chest. 

H A P P Y. F A T H E R S. D A Y. !!!!

Happy Father's Day to my dad! This is him holding me at 9 days old!! ^^^^

We went to a zoo today! 

It was lovely! 

Kaleb and I swam and tanned. 

Elijah played with Grandma and Grandpa T and T!! 

Elijah got some sunscreen in his eye! 

Breastmilk solved it. 

LUSH is an amazing store full if all natural shampoos, soaps and all sorts of other body/skin care items!!!!!!!!! 

They have one in MOA and I WILL be visiting it next time we go to IKEA!