Late night thought

"Don't make your spiritual health contingent upon someone else's performance. That's giving them way to much control over your life. That's what you're doing if you wait for them to act appropriately".

This is something my hometown Pastor said in his last sermon.  And it hit me hard. 

So often we do this. 

I'm guilty of it. 

We can't insist that someone apologize. Because we want to feel better. And let's face it forgiveness is easier with an apology. However::

It's not our job to make people apologize. 

Worrying so much about the actions of others leads us to a bad place. It's a place in which someone else dictates how we feel. They dictate whether we are joyful or comfortable or angry or happy. It's not good to give that control to someone else. 

I want to lean on Jesus instead. 

I want to remember that I am a child of the ONE TRUE KING. 

That's whom I put my trust in. I will let him have control. 

I will walk in His truth. And know that my identity is found in Christ. 

I am a saint

I am redeemed 

I am forgiven. 

I am a daughter of God 

We also can't get up on a high horse and kid ourselves into thinking we deserve an apology. 

We have to forgive even if the other person doesn't apologize. And we have to understand that sometimes people aren't aware that they were hurtful unless you TELL THEM! 

I want to continue working on doing the right thing no matter how the other person is acting. 

It's not easy but it makes for no regrets. 

I'm so glad I made the best of the last difficult situation I was in. It wasn't easy. It was full of tears and angry feelings. And I know I didn't act perfect. But it was such an overwhelmingly terrible time for my emotions, I feel I did the humanly best I could and I have the rest to God. 

That's all we can do. And of course pray our way through it.