October 15th Update

 Alright! 

A quick update:

The complication is still visible. But our OB is very hopeful now that she saw an updated scan.

10/26 we will see a maternal fetal medicine specialist just to dot our i’s and cross our T’s. Many who have similar situations don’t do this but she is available and we feel it’s best to have her see an updated scan that day.

That will be our anatomy scan. We will not be finding out gender  

On ultrasound today (10/15) the baby is healthy and everything looks good as far as he or she is concerned.

The worry for the doctors was that the placenta would become compromised. But the scan today showed that it is not what’s happening.

Here is how you can pray:

Pray for total healing. . 

Pray for our children, being on light duty and needing to rest has been hard for them. Elijah has been such a huge help. We are giving everyone rewards/prizes as they’ve all taken on more than their normal share of house chores. 

Pray that we can remain content taking this day by day. There’s no need to get ahead of ourselves. This is a journey of daily abiding in Jesus on a level we’ve not ever had to do  we don’t want to miss the lessons & blessings God has in store. There’s a story here worth telling.

Pray for my blood to do it’s job in the healing. All of my numbers look great. Surprisingly the best they’ve ever looked as far as my iron levels are concerned. It must be all the spaghetti sauce meals & cheeseburgers lately 😂 Usually I have to work hard to maintain them. Which has always worked but this time they are wonderful.  

Thank you for your prayers and being on this journey with us. 

And thank you for respecting our privacy. I’ve prayed a lot about what to share & how much etc. And for now, this feels like the best way.

What we are dealing with has a label. It’s in my chart. But as far as the public and this forum, I am keeping that information close. 

Our society lives on labels. Positive labels are wonderful but I don’t want to give too much attention to the negative. 

Please speak positively and use words of healing. That’s what God wants us to do, I can feel it.

“But no man can tame the tongue. It is an unruly evil, full of deadly poison. With it we bless our God and Father, and with it we curse men, who have been made in the similitude of God. Out of the same mouth proceed blessing and cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be so. Does a spring send forth fresh water and bitter from the same opening? Can a fig tree, my brethren, bear olives, or a grapevine bear figs? Thus no spring yields both salt water and fresh.”

‭‭James‬ ‭3:8-12‬ 

Jesus is Our Guide

“He will shelter you with his wings; you will find safety under his wings. His faithfulness is like a shield or a protective wall.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:4‬

On October 6th at 16 weeks along, ER doctors found a minor pregnancy complication. I am not naming it or giving myself a negative label because I refuse to carry it as my own. It isn’t mine. It isn’t our baby’s either. I have done all the recommendations & will continue to do so in order to physically do my part to enable a healthy womb world for the baby.

This precious baby is bouncing around in utero happy & healthy as can be. He or she looks so joyful on the ultrasound. I thought of the Bible verse about John the Baptist leaping in his mother’s womb when Jesus -in Mary’s womb- was near.

Please pray for today as we go in for a follow up at 1:30 Cst. We are praying for healing & believing that God our Father is with us every step of the way no matter what.  And we will always trust that He is writing our story.

Pray for:

Strength. 

Courage. 

Wisdom.

Truth.

The womb is a secret place, a place where God is in control. 

We believe as the Bible says that the power of life & death is in the tongue. As Christ’s own, we have been given a calling to speak life. And that is why I won’t be labeling myself in any negative way as the mainstream medical world does. I’ll heed advice & use my brain but spiritually speaking, I refuse to allow fear into my soul. I want to walk this out with wisdom & truth. I refuse to be bullied or coerced into anything unnecessary. And that’s what we need the most prayer over. The strength to stand up for our baby & ourselves.

Karilynn reminded me of a favorite saying this week, “No is a complete sentence.” Over the last 18 months, much has changed. While receiving care, we’ve already had to say NO to the *you know what* several times - that’s a topic in & of itself. But I will say this, ANY care provider pushing that onto a woman carrying LIFE (or anyone) doesn’t have OUR best interest in mind. I will not waver on that stance. 

And the vibe inside the walls of the clinic has been full of fear from the enemy but that will not permeate our lives because Jesus is the King of our hearts. God is in control & He gets the final word.

All week as I’ve rested & prayed I’ve felt God so near. And heard Him say, “be yourself. Be who I made you to be. I have given you a voice & a mind that you have filled full of knowledge. You are prepared & ready.”

God also reminded me that over the years, that same knowledge has helped many women fight for the pregnancy & birth they deserve using grace, love & evidence based truth. And with that knowledge I can & I will help our family & bring Glory to God.

We will do whatever it takes to be safe & use the medical evidence we are given to make wise decisions.

This journey is God leading me where my feet would NEVER wander. And I know it’s because the medical system needs Jesus now more than ever before. I don’t want to miss whatever He has planned along this path. 

Never forget that anyone holding power over you & shoving fear into your mind, doesn’t want you to be educated & know the truth. That’s why they talk down to you & make you feel helpless. But we are called to be ambassadors of truth. The truth of Jesus & any other loving truth that needs to be declared.

“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness, for we do not know how we should pray, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with inexpressible groanings. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes on behalf of the saints according to God’s will. And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose,”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:26-28‬ ‭