Jesus is Our Guide

“He will shelter you with his wings; you will find safety under his wings. His faithfulness is like a shield or a protective wall.”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭91:4‬

On October 6th at 16 weeks along, ER doctors found a minor pregnancy complication. I am not naming it or giving myself a negative label because I refuse to carry it as my own. It isn’t mine. It isn’t our baby’s either. I have done all the recommendations & will continue to do so in order to physically do my part to enable a healthy womb world for the baby.

This precious baby is bouncing around in utero happy & healthy as can be. He or she looks so joyful on the ultrasound. I thought of the Bible verse about John the Baptist leaping in his mother’s womb when Jesus -in Mary’s womb- was near.

Please pray for today as we go in for a follow up at 1:30 Cst. We are praying for healing & believing that God our Father is with us every step of the way no matter what.  And we will always trust that He is writing our story.

Pray for:

Strength. 

Courage. 

Wisdom.

Truth.

The womb is a secret place, a place where God is in control. 

We believe as the Bible says that the power of life & death is in the tongue. As Christ’s own, we have been given a calling to speak life. And that is why I won’t be labeling myself in any negative way as the mainstream medical world does. I’ll heed advice & use my brain but spiritually speaking, I refuse to allow fear into my soul. I want to walk this out with wisdom & truth. I refuse to be bullied or coerced into anything unnecessary. And that’s what we need the most prayer over. The strength to stand up for our baby & ourselves.

Karilynn reminded me of a favorite saying this week, “No is a complete sentence.” Over the last 18 months, much has changed. While receiving care, we’ve already had to say NO to the *you know what* several times - that’s a topic in & of itself. But I will say this, ANY care provider pushing that onto a woman carrying LIFE (or anyone) doesn’t have OUR best interest in mind. I will not waver on that stance. 

And the vibe inside the walls of the clinic has been full of fear from the enemy but that will not permeate our lives because Jesus is the King of our hearts. God is in control & He gets the final word.

All week as I’ve rested & prayed I’ve felt God so near. And heard Him say, “be yourself. Be who I made you to be. I have given you a voice & a mind that you have filled full of knowledge. You are prepared & ready.”

God also reminded me that over the years, that same knowledge has helped many women fight for the pregnancy & birth they deserve using grace, love & evidence based truth. And with that knowledge I can & I will help our family & bring Glory to God.

We will do whatever it takes to be safe & use the medical evidence we are given to make wise decisions.

This journey is God leading me where my feet would NEVER wander. And I know it’s because the medical system needs Jesus now more than ever before. I don’t want to miss whatever He has planned along this path. 

Never forget that anyone holding power over you & shoving fear into your mind, doesn’t want you to be educated & know the truth. That’s why they talk down to you & make you feel helpless. But we are called to be ambassadors of truth. The truth of Jesus & any other loving truth that needs to be declared.

“In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness, for we do not know how we should pray, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with inexpressible groanings. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes on behalf of the saints according to God’s will. And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose,”

‭‭Romans‬ ‭8:26-28‬ ‭