Night time thoughts from Jenni's heart...

People of this world make me sad. Been thinking about how sad I used to be. And missing friends I made while I was lost and searching. When you choose to not drink, with that choice comes many losses. 

You are left out.

So called friends quit calling. They make up lame excuses about how they think your apartment is too small. Or because I'm married, I'm too busy. 

When deep down, you know the real reason. 

The real reason is, a life lived for Jesus makes them uncomfortable. They will never admit that. They will just say stupid crap in fb messages or via texting. 

Lame. Excuses. 

Because these people are too cowardly to say, 

look Jenni, the real reason I straight up quit talking to you is because I don't understand this new life you are leading. I feel like you are just judge mental and stuck up now that you don't drink or smoke. And I don't want to be made to feel like drinking or smoking is bad. So our so called friendship and the love I had for you has just disappeared. And i WILL go find new friends and tell them i love them. And all of the memories and talks and advice and everything doesn't matter to me anymore. IT IS AS IF OUR FRIENDSHIP NEVER HAPPENED!!! 

Well, I am here to tell you all that what I write above is a narrative hypothetical conversation. Of sorts. No one has ever given me a good solid heartfelt reason for ending a friendship! 

Because I have had many friendships end. And every time I have been made to feel that it's ME! That I am a horrible friend. And that my friendship doesn't matter! 

But I know the truth! And the truth has set me free! 

Friends that both love Jesus above all else, are friends for life!! They are blessings and they are rare!! 

Everything matters. You matter. I matter. The choices we make matter! Step outside of your comfort zone and be courageous! When the whole world is saying do this or do that, take the narrow road and do neither! For God's sake, live a life that matters! 

I had to write down my thoughts on friendship! Right now, living in a new place, I am feeling many emotions about making friends:

 frankly, I feel nervous and apprehensive because I have been hurt by so many friends. And especially within the last year, a friend whom I thought would be a forever kind, simply quit speaking to me. And it's been a hard year if coming to terms with all if the emotions I have felt about my once dear friend. 

I also don't want anyone reading this to take offense. I have had several friendships amicably end. That's DIFFERENT!!      

Prayers are appreciated! 

For I know the Bible says FEAR NOT!!! And I want to replace that dear in my heart with courage! 

In Jesus name! 

Blessings to all!! 

My family visits..

It's weird that my family now has to come visit us. 

It was lovely to have my sister stay thurs-Sunday with us! 

We had fun shopping and playing with Ebear!! 

She is my best friend and I miss her when she's gone! Every time she leaves I cry. I can't help it. This is the way life has to be. But I pray one day we can live very near to each other! And we can raise our kids together! That is my dream life. 

I trust that God will make it happen I'd it is His will. He hears my prayers. 

I am blessed to have a sister who is my friend who shares her life! Not only the drama and negative and such but also the good and the joyful moments! We share it all! 

We forgive

We love

We laugh

We will always be

I love you, Kiah! 

I am blessed to have a younger sister who always understands and who is helpful. I am 9 years older than her so it makes things different. She is in high school and I'm married and a mother. But I enjoy laughing with her and all of our inside jokes! 

She is such a beauty!

I love you, Gina (Geen)

 One day all three if us will be married and have kids and we will be the best of friends!! 

I know it! 

Life is beautiful. And part of that beauty lies in the fact that I have sisters!! 

They are both treasures! 

To know I have two people who I will always love and who will always love me is a reassuring constant blessing! 

It is a rare gem! 

Tell your family you love them!! 

Ok I sign off on that note! 

This week in our life.. 5.7.13

This week is nice and slow!

But this weekend will be busy! 

Pray this cold heals up! 

Thursday my sister is coming home fromMinneapolis!

So Elijah and I are making the 1.5 hr trip to my parent's house!  

Friday we are finishing up with any last minute baby shower things! Because we are throwing our friend M an 

AHOY! IT'S A BOY! Shower! 

We have amazing things planned!! 

Can't wait!! 

It was finally nice out and we were able to hang out in a blanket outside yesterday! 

I am so glad we did because it is gloomy and rainy today! I'm going to spend all day resting and healing! 

Both mama and baby boy E are sick today! Yeesh! 

This has been rough!

But I feel God helping me stay strong mentally! 

Diving into His word {The Bible} daily, is a big help.

A constant reminder that HE IS our healer! 

I am feeling as though yesterday was the roughest day! 

Today the cable man is here, setting up DirectTv!! Yay! 

I've never had cable before! 

But since we are so far out in the boonies, we thought it may be a good idea. This way Kaleb and I can watch movies on our date nights. And we don't have to drive 20 minutes to rent a movie! Lol! 

Country living! 

We moved to a town of 369 people! As of the 2010 census! So perhaps with us moving here its 372?! Lol

Who knows.

This town has:

a post office

A convenience store

A farmers coop

Wind turbines

A meat market

A bar {{go figure it's Minnesota! Bars are people's everything! 

It's quite sad}}

Basically we are in a town but its a tiny farming community. If you aren't a farmer you work for Toro {factory of Toro items} which is 20 minutes away!

So I don't want to hear any complaining from anyone! The nearest Walmart is 35 minutes away!! 

I will take some photos of this town when I am feeling better!

This is silly but I learned how to make a smiley face with a mustache! ---

:-})

Happy Wednesday everyone!! 

Our new life..5.20.13

I had a fabulous Mother's Day!! Kaleb bought me a new sewing machine! See the photos below!

 My thoughts on our new life:

We are adjusting to our new life! 

I love having a big house! It is so much easier to keep clean! I am enjoying it

so much! 

I love having a pet bunny! 🐰Derp is living upstairs in his cage in his own room! It is wonderful!! Kaleb and I go up there and play with him daily! 

I love that Kaleb doesn't have a long drive to work!🚗

I love that Kaleb can come home for lunch somedays! 🏡

I love having more space for recycling organization! ♻

I love having a laundry room on the main level of the home instead of in the basement!! 

I miss my family being close! 

I miss our home church! 💒

But we will find a new church soon! ⛪Either we will be going to an Assembly of God  church or an Evangelical Free church. 

We will be visiting each church several times. And prayerfully 🙏make a decision. Whatever the Holy Spirit leads us to do! 

We have several exciting things to look forward to in the coming months! 

This week my sister is coming to visit! ✌And I am so excited about that! I miss having her around all the time! And she can hold Elijah while I unpack more stuff!! :) 

Then, Friday, my mom and sister are coming!! Hopefully we can get a lot done!! And get my house in order! And completely unpacked and decorated! 🎑

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I am bringing my friend Kristina to her indoor power hockey games this summer! once in June, July and August! She is a dear friend. I used to be her PCA. Elijah and I will be making the trip to her hockey games! And helping her attend them in her wheelchair ♿...I am so excited! 

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✈We are flying to 🌵Arizona, June 13! I am so excited and so is Kaleb!!! We haven't seen his family in one year!! And 👪 they haven't met Ebear yet!! Praying that Elijah does well on the plane in the seats! 💺

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💍Our 2 year anniversary 💎is June 25, 2013!! 💒🎉 and we are celebrating as a family of 3 this year!! 🚹🚺🚼

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I am going to now the lawn this week! I live mowing the lawn! 

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The strings on our clothesline are broken so this week we are going to put up new ones! Yay! 

Laundry is my favorite chore! I love the smell of fresh air/wind dried clothing!! 👚👖👗👙👕

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Kaleb is buying a bike! We will all be biking together in no time! And for now we will pull Elijah in a pull behind cart and once he is more stable in his sitting up abilities, we will get a seat to attach to Kaleb's bike! 🚲